Preparation (Malay..haha...malas nak wat English)

Huhu. At last, akhirnya dapat gak tawaran UPU yang memang aku tunggu selama ni. Mase malam awal bulan mei, memang time tu smue dok sibuk nak cek keputusan permohonan (termasuk aku gak..haha). Tapi, frust giler ak bile nak bukak, "server busy"--->ni la yg die tulis kt monitor pc ak..haha. So, terpakse la tunggu sampai kul 3.00 pagi (tu dia. Padahal online dari kul 9.00 mlm...haha). Anyway, tunggu(56x) at last, dapat gak la aku bukak (walaupun kene refresh page bape kali ntah aku pon tak ingat...hehe) mane tak nyer, beribu-ribu orang nak cek kan..so, internet pon konfem slow, hehe. Lepas last page refresh, terpapar "Tahniah, Muhammad Irsyaduddin Ashyibli Bin Mohamed Hatta, blah blah blah...asasi TESL...hehe. Aku ingat aku sorang je yg happy, tgk(2x) mak aku pon tumpang happy gak sebab lega aku dapat offer. Anyway, skang memang kene prepare abes-abesan..haha. Cuma tinggal gambar je tak wat agy. Smue document(2x) dah aku settlekan. Aha!! rambut tak potong agy..malas la. Tapi nanti kene halau dari kampus lak...takpelah, potong je lah...nanti bleh simpan agy..hehe. FYI, bukan aku sorang je yg dapat TESl. Ade agy 3 orang kot tak silap aku (member sendiri pun tak ingat..haha). Subjek yg aku akan blaja kat sane, ade yg aku pnah dengar & ade yg tak penah langsung. Yang paling aku surprise, ade member aku kate kami smue blaja drama..ada 3 drama & kami kene lakonkan blek (acting lah plak..TIDAK!!! haha). Anyway, that's all I could tell for now. Nanti kalau ade pape cerite agy ak post.Till then, cheerio!! fly away!!!

My Favourite Musicians

James Owen Sullivan (February 9, 1981 – December 28, 2009), better known by his stage name, The Rev, was the drummer for the American rock band Avenged Sevenfold, and was as well the lead vocalist in the avant-garde metal band Pinkly Smooth, along with fellow Avenged Sevenfold guitarist Synyster Gates. Sullivan lived in Huntington Beach, California and was engaged to Leana MacFadden (also known as Leana Silver). He was found dead on December 28, 2009, aged 28. R.I.P. The Rev. We will miss you so much. You're the best drummer that the world has ever had.

Zachary James Baker, (born December 11, 1981) better known by his stage name Zacky Vengeance, is the rhythm guitarist and backing vocalist for the American metal/rock bandAvenged Sevenfold. He was ranked as the second best rhythm guitarist's of all time in Kerrang!, behind Dragonforce's Sam Totman.

Brian Elwin Haner, Jr. (July 7, 1981), better known by his stage name Synyster Gates or simply Syn or "Gates", is an American musician. He is the lead guitarist for the American heavy metal band Avenged Sevenfold. Guitar World magazine has ranked him one of the fastest guitar players of all-time. His father is Brian Haner. My favourite guitarist.

Perfectly Loveless

It's no secret that the word love gets tossed around all too carelessly. A creative appology that feels less like a betrayal than a slap in the face. The ever thinning glue that is holding your parrents faulty marriage together. Funny how that one word alone can make or break a lengthy friendship. The irony of preparing your words as you hand her the expensive roses. Only to have your thoughtful dreams crash to the ground in flames. When you suddenly realise that she doesn't feel the same way. It's the awkward silence filler in the car when there is nothing left to say. Love is a warming selfless suicide. A mockery of feeling and emotion.

My Best Friends

Haha. Another BFF of mine. Zhafri was his name & he really got that macho style of his own, haha. He too really helped me a lot whenever I had problems. Me, him & Soyuz sat together in class. Ahh, those were the days. Gonna miss it so much. And the best part of him is that he always look somewhere else when someone is taking his picture, haha.

Another one of my BFF. His name was Afiq Ahmad Khairuddin. But, during school, everyone call him Soyuz (And I meant EVERYONE) haha. Why? Because he has a high hope on his life, in a positive way of course. we sat together in a class. I'm telling you, he loves to eat & sleep. He even sleeps during class when the teacher is not looking, haha. Whenever I need help, he's the first one to respond. I'm truly gonna miss him.

This is my BFF. Iyza Tajul Ariff. We both have the same problem in our lives. But, I always give advice & try my best to help her. Even she's helping me too & it really touches me. We always back up each other. "I'm really proud to have you as my best friend". I really hope not to lose contact with her even though we have gone to our separate lives.

My Life Before & After SPM

SERATAS; The most memorable school that I've ever went to. A place where I finally have real friends, even became more independent. lots of lessons I've learnt about life, in fact, everything. Started schooling there in Form 4 & end in Form 5. In that 2 years, I've been in the same class. Lots of my friends which are smarter than me have change to a better classes. But, that still doesn't bothers me. I mean, why the hell do I care about other people. let them do their own business & I'll do mine. I'm not saying that I only care about myself. What I meant was that, don't feel bad about yourself just because you didn't make it on the first time. Time will always be on your side. You just have to work hard in order for the time to be on your side. Like myself, I didn't perform well during Form 4. 2009; The year of darkness to me, "Dark Ages". I said to myself, "No playing, be serious". I always keep that in my mind. Diagnostic test is coming & i haven't prepared anything for it. but, luckily, even though only studied on the last minute, I still manage to get 5A. But, still got the fail ones, which is add maths of course, haha. From Form 1 until Form 5, I always get 5A for the first test on every year, not more than that. It's really weird you know, for 5 years been like that. Months went by & my results is not really good. It's getting worse & worse every time exams came. Even in trial SPM I didn't score really well. Guess I haven't put much effort into it. Lot of things have been going on in my mind. Can't concentrate very well. Truth is, I didn't even study during the SPM either. Well, of course my result will be bad. I just knew it. So, in order to forget about it, I just try to enjoy my 4 months holiday, which I still can't & don't know why. To tell you the truth, I was in love with a girl during the exam. But, I'll never gonna have her, she doesn't like me. What can I do? I can't force her. Love can't be forced. But at that time, my hope was so high, that I kept texting her to really convince her that I really love her. Such a stupid thing to do. But, I don't blame her for my result. It was my fault anyway. Now, I really gotta work hard in order to be what I want. "Girl, I'm so sorry".